Helloooooooooooo little box of nothingness that I shall fill up. I'm on a stronger muscle relaxer now, I like how they said there wasn't anything stronger than Skelaxin. I liked that name though cause then I could say "relaxin' with Skelaxin" hahah.. I'm so corny. Anyway I'm on a shitload of medication right now. I'm on Prednisone for my MS and I haven't weighed myself since I started Weight Watchers but yeaaa...... the meeting is tomorrow and I get weighed then. My mom tells me not to be surprised if I don't lose or even GAIN weight because of the Prednisone. Mother fucker! baaaaaaa....... oh well at least I have my portions under control. I'm always hungry though...... this medicine has mindfucked me as far as food goes. I haven't had hardcore muscle spasms in a while and I'm just waiting for them to come... and it's scary. It's scary not knowing which day I won't be able to get out of bed. I cry every single night, waking up my mom and it sucks. Not waking her up like going to her room or anything, she hears me crying and comes to mine. I feel like a little baby but it just hurts so much. I would do almost anything not to have MS, but that doesn't really matter 'cause once you get it... you got it. Looking back, I was "tested"(asked a bunch of really ODD questions) for Lupus like 5 years ago because no doctor could figure out why I was so tired all the time and I told them I had mono like a few years ago and ever since then I didn't get better and that's why I sucked at gym class, no matter what it was. Gym class was always something big for me. Like a huge task and people didn't understand, and neither did I, as to why I was so fucking slow at everything. I hated gym class man. I got picked last EVERY time and I feel like teachers should just spare kids feelings and pick the teams themselves. Like really, you're getting paid to let two kids pick teams and you know someone is gonna be picked last...... arg. There's so much wrong with teachers these days. Like, they should get paid a lot more for start. I don't really wanna talk about teaching hahahaha FOR I AM NOT A TEACHER. Let's seee......... I got to see Courtney which was awesome. I got to see Jess which is amazing to me that she's really here and such. I give her a lot of credit for coming out here on her own. I walked so much that day and I was sweating like crazy hehe.. it was worth it and gave me great sleepage today. Today my body was fucking tired as hell. At PT I only did 20 exercises instead of 30. It seems like 10 more really isn't a big deal, but it is in the long run. I'm going to be given new exercises for my upper back. I have a huge lesion(umm a big white dot that shows up in an MRI... it's from the MS) in my upper back/spine/whatever you wish to call it and that's what causes my upper back to hurt. and then I got the herniated disc in the lower back, man, I HATE MY BACK lol. I really fucking do. It's such an asshole. Awwie Dylan is trying to get in the sunroom with the door shut hahahaa. Poor guy. I opened it for him I'm talking to Catherine online. She's a sweet kid. She made me all these awesome drawings that are on my wall/ceiling. I'm in the process of writing a little to her each day(not so it's a novel, or anything that long, but just so she has something to read ya know) in a letter for her. I hope she likes it. I want popcorn..... I have one point left on WW and I WANT MY FUCKING POPCORN(it's 1 point..... every now and then you get like a taste of butter haha it sucks. MOVIE THEATER POPCORN IS SO MUCH BETTER!!!!!!) I might be going to the movies tomorrow with my mom. Idk. I'm bored. Bye.